The Lathe Of Heaven

“Why? ”

“Because it works. ”

“‘Works how? ”

“You get a little help from your friends, ” George said. He stood up. Heather stared at him in terror. What he had been saying sounded crazy—Haber’s cure had driven him insane, she had known it would. But Haber was not responding—was he? —as he would to incoherent or psychotic talk.

“Iahklu’is too much for one person to handle alone, ” George was saying, “it gets out of hand. They know what’s involved in controlling it. Or, not exactly controlling it, that’s not the right word; but keeping it where it belongs, going the right way. .. . I don’t understand it. Maybe you will. Ask their help. Say Er’ perrehnne before you. .. before you press the ON button. ”

“You may have something there, ” Haber said. “Might be worth investigating. I’ll get onto it, George. I’ll have one of the Aldebaranians from the Culture Center up and see if I can get some information on this. .. . All Greek to you, eh, Mrs. Orr? This husband of yours should have gone into the shrink game, the research end of it; he’s wasted as a draftsman. ”  Why did he say that? George was a parks-and-playgrounds designer. “He’s got the flair, he’s a natural. Never thought of hooking the Aldebaranians in on this, but he might just have a real idea there. But maybe you’re just as glad he’s not a shrink, eh? Awful to have your spouse analyzing your unconscious desires across the dinner table, eh? ” He boomed and thundered, showing them out. Heather was bewildered, nearly in tears.

“I hate him, ” she said fiercely, on the descending spiral of the escalator. “He’s a horrible man. False. A big fake! ” George took her arm. He said nothing. “Are you through? Really through? You won’t need drugs any more, and you’re all through these awful sessions? ”

“I think so. He’ll file my papers, and in six weeks I should get a notice of clearance. If I behave myself. ” He smiled, a little tiredly. “This was tough on you, honey, but it wasn’t on me. Not this time. I’m hungry, though. Where’ll we go for dinner? The Casa Boliviana? ”

“Chinatown, ” she said, and then caught herself. “Ha-ha, ” she added. The old Chinese district had been cleared away along with the rest of downtown, at least ten years ago. For some reason she had completely forgotten that for a moment. “I mean Ruby Loo’s, ” she said, confused. George held her arm a little closer. “Fine, ” he said. It was easy to get to; the funicular line stopped across the river in the old Lloyd Center, once the biggest shopping center in the world, back before the Crash. Nowadays the vast multilevel parking lots were gone along with the dinosaurs, and many of the shops and stores along the two-level mall were empty, boarded up. The ice rink had not been filled in twenty years. No water ran in the bizarre, romantic fountains of twisted metal. Small ornamental trees had grown up towering; their roots cracked the walkways for yards around their cylindrical planters. Voices and footsteps rang overclearly, a little hollowly, before and behind one, walking those long, half-lit, half-derelict arcades.

Ruby Loo’s was on the upper level. The branches of a horse chestnut almost hid the glass facade. Overhead, the sky was an intense delicate green, that color seen briefly on spring evenings when there is a clearing after rain. Heather looked up into that jade heaven, remote, improbable, serene; her heart lifted, she felt anxiety begin to slip off her like a shed skin. But it did not last. There was a curious reversal, a shifting. Something seemed to catch at her, to hold her. She almost stopped walking, and looked down from the sky of jade into the empty, heavy-shadowed walks before her. This was a strange place. “It’s spooky up here, ” she said.

George shrugged; but his face looked tense and rather grim.

A wind had come up, too warm for the Aprils of the old days, a wet, hot wind moving the great green-fingered branches of the chestnut, stirring litter far down the long, deserted turnings. The red neon sign behind the moving branches seemed to dim and waver with the wind, to change shape; it didn’t say Ruby Loo’s, it didn’t say anything any more; Nothing said anything. Nothing had meaning. The wind blew hollow in the hollow courts. Heather turned away from George and went off toward the nearest wall; she was in tears. In pain her instinct was to hide, to get in a corner of a wall and hide.

“What is it, honey. .. . It’s all right. Hang on, it’ll be all right. ”

I am going insane, she thought; it wasn’t George, it wasn’t George all along, it was me.

“It’ll be all right, ” he whispered once more, but she heard in his voice that he did not believe it. She felt in his hands that he did not believe it.

“What’s wrong, ” she cried despairing. “What’s wrong? ”

“I don’t know, ” he said, almost inattentively. He had lifted his head and turned a little from her, though he still held her to him to stop her crying fit. He seemed to be watching, to be listening. She felt the heart beat hard and steady in his chest.

“Heather, listen. I’m going to have to go back. ”

“Go back where? What is it that’s wrong? ” Her voice was thin and high.

“To Haber. I have to go. Now. Wait for me—in the restaurant. Wait for me, Heather. Don’t follow me. ” He was off. She had to follow. He went, not looking back, fast, down the long stairs, under the arcades, past the dry fountains, out to the funicular station. A car was waiting, there at the end of the line; he hopped in. She scrambled on, her breath hurting in her chest, just as the car began to pull out. “What the hell, George! ”

“I’m sorry. ” He was panting, too. “I have to get there. I didn’t want to take you into it. ”

“Into what? ” She detested him. They sat on facing seats, puffing at each other. “What is this crazy performance? What are you going back there for? ”

“Haber is—” George’s voice went dry for a moment. “He is dreaming, ” he said. A deep mindless terror crawled inside Heather; she ignored it.